Novel? What novel? Oh! You mean that novel!
Washed in the Blood is currently languishing in the ICU while I dither over how far I’m willing to go to keep it alive. I love the characters and the concept, and there are some plot points and some scenes that I think are compelling.
ON THE OTHER HAND:
The story as it stands has some flaws so large they cannot be repaired. These flaws are inevitably, horribly, painfully fatal.
SO:
Here are my options as I see them:
1 — Forge ahead and finish
ADVANTAGES: I can say that I finished a novel. I might get insights into the characters and story that could resolve some of the larger issues in a second draft.
DISADVANTAGES: If I finish without resolving the major problems, I will feel bad about myself and about the story. I may not be able to overcome the odor of failure and rewrite this story into something successful. I might not get insights into the characters and story that could resolve some of the larger issues in a second draft.
2 — Pull the plug
ADVANTAGES: This would ease a large burden off my mind and allow me to move ahead on other projects (of which I have several under consideration) without feeling like I have unfinished business to take care of.
DISADVANTAGES: I really, really like these characters and this story, and I don’t want to abandon them until absoutely all hope is lost.
3 — Salvage the best bits and scrap the rest. Start over.
ADVANTAGES: I would have a head start on all the pre-writing work. This would be almost like a second draft re-write with extreme prejudice.
DISADVANTAGES: I am cowed by the enormity of the amount of work to be done and would be ashamed for not being able to finish the first draft, no matter how shitty it is. I am, of course, always open for another reason to kick my own butt.
Dither, dither, dither. I know: butt in chair, fingers on keys, write, write, write. I have plenty of short stories to work on while I agonize.
This writing business is hard! Why didn’t somebody warn me? What’s that, Holly? Yeah, you did warn me. I just didn’t listen. *sigh*


